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October 26, 2007
dall: yan dedicated yan sau..!

des, dall and i caught each other online at msn messenger and started discussing about our childhood years way back in riyadh, (way back 1996 and so on...haha) and how fast years have gone (still we're together, though not physically) then dall intentionally passed a contagious LSS to me. and shortly after, i passed it to des. (laughs)

dall:
oi camille, dapat mong makineg sa music ni jason mraz!
dall:
eto ang d best acoustic singer out there.
princesandrea: o sya sya. o cge, anong song ba?
dall:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w-myHLPTvaM
dall:
yan dedicated yan sau..!





and here i am, asking my brothers to play the song over and over again, until one day i woke up na sila rin LSS na ung i'm yours ni jason mraz. i was crossing the street when i realized i was humming, and while waiting for my brother to get through with his enrollment, i had bubbly and i'm yours playing over and over again in my cellphone. dall, you really know how to keep me still and at peace. thanks dear! get your ass here next year like you said coz i tell you, if you don't...expect that when i get to canada, hmph. you wouldn't wanna know, haha!

i love you boy!


it's 12:28 AM now

bubbly



colbie caillat - bubbly

so soothing especially when you're just watching the sunrise or sunset maybe?
simply just detaching yourself from the real world and have a peaceful moment.
(aw, gahd! this is what i need...badly.)

i love the song.

I've been awake for a while now
you've got me feeling like a child now
cause every time i see your bubbly face

I get the tinglies in a silly place

It starts in my toes
makes me crinkle my nose
where ever it goes I always know

that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go


The rain is falling on my window pane
but we are hiding in a safer place
under the covers staying safe and warm

you give me feelings that i adore


It starts in my toes
makes me crinkle my nose
where ever it goes
i always know
that you make me smile

please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go

What am i gonna say
when you make me feel this way
I just........mmmmmmmmmmm

It starts in my toes

makes me crinkle my nose
where ever it goes
i always know
that you make me smile

please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go

I’ve been asleep for a while now
You tucked me in just like a child now
Cause every time you hold me in your arms
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth

It starts in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feeling shows

Cause you make me smile

Baby just take your time
Holding me tight

Where ever, where ever, where ever you go
Where ever, where ever, where ever you go…


http://allazzilah.imeem.com/music/3wU5PP39/colbie_caillat_bubbly/



cousin rj, thanks for spending a great moment with us this evening at KFC.
you'll get that job in ust-eng, i tell you. *wink* the next time you see me, i won't have those DLEB anymore, hmph. love you cuz!


it's 12:04 AM now

October 24, 2007
swimming day @ makati

/the lovers/


tres marias bruhas,haha! the return


my brothers.


/my brother, mon...in a poop?/


/characterization. love 'em/


/beg to disagree?/




it's 12:38 PM now

October 21, 2007
sunday...sunday.

went to north and spent my day with my relatives. then my cool aunt and i went window shopping. ehehe...at least now, i wasn't in a hurry. but too bad i don't have enough money!

i wanna go shopping. i wanna eat ice cream, go to palawan. i wanna watch the sunset and the sunrise. i wanna...no not wanna..i "have to" detach myself from the urban life in Manila. i need to regain the "camille" back. first of all, ive become damn skinny. ive got EYE BAGS! at some point, i forgot to take care of myself. haha, better make a good come back, drea.

obviously, this entry doesn't make sense at all.

-OUT-


it's 9:22 PM now

October 19, 2007
was seriously bent out of shape, but thanks to stardust.

thanks to the Makati bombing yesterday, my weekend plans are ALL canceled since my parents who are miles away are seriously worried and paranoid.

whether this was done in purpose or not, it wasn't good. lives of many innocent beings have been taken. what kind of heart do these perpetrators have? probably taking lives of the many wasn't enough to satisfy their petrified "hearts".

but since i cannot be stopped despite that incident, my brothers and i, along with my buddy, gerald went to sm san lazaro for some groceries and well yeah, we watched stardust. and honestly, there i was moved but still no tears (hehe)

You know when I said I knew little about love? That wasn't true. I know a lot about love. I've seen it, centuries and centuries of it, and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable. All those wars. Pain, lies, hate... It made me want to turn away and never look down again. But when I see the way that mankind loves... You could search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful. So yes, I know that love is unconditional. But I also know that it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing, and... What I'm trying to say, Tristan is... I think I love you. Is this love, Tristan? I never imagined I'd know it for myself. My heart... It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it's trying to escape because it doesn't belong to me any more. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange - no fits. No goods. No demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine. -Yvaine, Stardust
(source: http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0486655/quotes)
ok before any violent reactions, let me say that i know it's about mushy stuff and again yes, obviously it's about love - but in general. if there is something magnificent about life, it is love itself. everything wouldn't be possible without love. above all these...divine love reigns, since without it life here on earth wouldn't be possible. HIS unconditional love saved people from all races. a simple act of love can truly save and uplift someone from its deepest and darkest entropy. a love that builds changes things for the better, however the love that destroys and aims pain and suffering of another being is selfish or prejudiced "love". it's not always about yourself, it's about sharing & giving to others. it's all about having to give a part of you in exchange of nothing yet gaining something that you would never trade for anything. when He knocks at your door to take back your borrowed life, would you freely give it to him after knowing you weren't able to fulfill your purpose? nobody would be bringing anything that we have with us hereafter. think about it.

the most wonderful things are never seen, but FELT. the most magnificent things could never be bought because nobody could ever purchase something that would last a lifetime.




it's 11:22 PM now

October 18, 2007
actions speak louder than words

"words without actions"
...never enough to prove your stand.


it's 9:25 PM now

darn that pin!

i accidentally stepped on the UST pin while cleaning our milenyo-messed unit. i wanted to cry but i couldn't my brother had to carry me near the shower room so that we could wash it clean. nanghina ako. sobra. i squeezed my left toe to let the blood out, then i realized i couldn't squeeze it hard enough. i had no energy at all. i wanted to cry, it hurts so much that i kinda felt the pin reach the bone. i was starting to become loud, i was whining and all, i really wanted to cry, but unfortunately - no tears. at first i was a little numb, but after i washed it and all...i couldn't walk. i don't know why. my youngest brother mon was telling me that it was normal.

i saw how dirty the PIN was! baka matetano ako...naman! i was freaking out.

its been 2 hours after that stupid incident, but i could still feel the pain.
parang PASA. after three hours of rearranging the room and cleaning it plus i ACCIDENTALLY stepped on the damn UST pin. i felt my energy was sucked by that PIN. if it was as small as a safety pin, i wouldn't be acting this way o_0


it's 12:55 AM now

October 17, 2007
good things come my way.

i was at shopping mode with my brothers when paul sent me a message:

"gusto mo qnin ko grades mo?"

i didn't have credits therefore i couldn't reply to him. soon as i had my phone loaded, i replied to his message and in return he asked for my student number and password.

after 15-20 minutes...

"wla kang bagsak! yey!"

in one way or another. despite the rocky road this semester, i managed to keep my grades healthy,. (lol, what a term)

laters!

-out to dinner with brothers.


it's 5:06 PM now

October 16, 2007
that's what i'm talking about.

Right after Thursday exams, i was supposed to go back home to my aunt's place at fairview. but since kaye came all the way from dasmarinas, cavite just to chill with me, we ended up sitting and laughing for hours in starbucks. then at around 1 am, we headed off to 24hours McDo at Dapitan, eating fries and McNuggets.

Despite the hectic life we have, kaye and i never failed to catch up the moments we should have spent time together. things never changed. the laughters' always the loud-i-dont-care laugh. the eye-to-eye understanding. the-way-you-stare messages. the hugs. the hours spent talking about issues we never have outgrown.

that's me and kaye. the bittersweet tandem.





Monday, October 15, 2007
deadline of extended feature articles for literary journalism and the manilan broadsheet for newspaper practice management.

meeting time: 10am, place: AB pavillion

i was in school around 930 am. after i realized that i was the only 3journ2 student in the pav, i headed off to the second floor of st. raymond's to check on updates. October 23, 2007 clearance and enrollment day. (early eh!?) marked that on my calendar.

went back to the pav to check if anyone's around. kyle was sitting alone, again, listening to his mp3 player. sat beside him and waited for the others to arrive.

around 11, my brother and i had brunch at lovelite. before i was about to eat, niccolo called telling me that jc had arrived. upon arriving, jc told me that the newspaper would be printed after 1pm, i still chose to wait till it was published. i collected the other articles for lit journ and went back to eat with my brother.

12noon: i was in loud mode with aphrodite. a little moment with her made me realize a lot of things. these are the moments you would never trade for anything. haha. at the same time, carlo loveria acted more strange than ever, he was in lunatic-in-love mode that time and i really realized, he wasn't playing at all. this guy's in love. along came noy and kyle. we sat for an hour just laughing, talking and the usual "asaran" moments. until roman convinced himself to sit beside his white lion and try to take another step close to her heart. meanwhile, kyle and noy convinced me to play pool with them. the fact that i my left wrist has a "pilay" or cyst, it was impossible that i can play right with them. but then, there i was playing 13 rounds with the two guys, hehe. thanks boys! i really had fun. kyle don't worry my wrist is fine. im thinking twice of having it removed or not, *laughs*. till next time.

Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Since i was pissed with what happened about the removal list at 3am. i decided that we (me and my two brothers) just eat lunch outside. food trip! after mon's last exam, we ate at flavorites and thought of playing pool (again) afterwards.

scores: carlo 2, mon 2, mille 1. haha! not bad for my left wrist. carry pa!

2pm - 6pm

that's what i'm talking about! it's about time that i pamper myself. after playing eating lunch outside and playing pool, catnap in the afternoon!

the moment i got up, YM buzzes were on the loose hehe. sorry, i had fun in dreamland.





no plans for the sembreak. whatever comes up, im on it. just as long as i have enough money for that, ahhahah!

time for midnight snack =D


it's 1:41 PM now

October 15, 2007
eleap psych course: no new updates

akala ko makakatulog na ako pero dahil kinailangan kong maghintay hanggang alas tres para sa removal list sa pysch, dilat at namumuti ang mga mata ko. wala namang kaso kung ako ang maghihintay, sana man lang kino-contact kami ni sir, kahit ako lang itext...kung ano na nangyari

thursday, october 11, 2007
3.00 pm
AVR, st. raymond's building
ust
sir arlo: on monday afternoon or evening check the names of those who are going to take the removals on tuesday.
3jrn2: sir post nalang po.
sir arlo: ah, alam ko na eleap nalang. sino dito nakaka-access ng eleap? how bout you mr. president?
jc: sir hindi po ako makapasok.
sir arlo: how bout the vice president?
mille: sir nakaka-acces po ako.
sir arlo: ok ill post it there check mo nalang

after the exam...
mille: sir ito na po paper ko. sir pwede ko po makuha number niyo para ma-update ko po kayo in case magka-problem po sa eleap?
sir: ito (gives his number). miscol ka para mlaman ko kung tama.
nagring sa tone na hindi ko alam kung ano.
mille: sir mga around what time ko po ichecheck?
sir: around 8pm ng monday night, ok?
mille: alright sir. thank you!

monday, october 15, 2007
10.00 am
AB Pavillion
ust

3jrn2: yey! last na 'to tapos na tau!
meow: ay shet yung psych pa! nu na bang balita cams?
mille: tonight ill update you guys, sabi ni sir check ko ng 8pm eh, magpapakalat nalang ako ng text.
meow: alright.

7.00 pm
checked my eleap account, "no new ANNOUNCEMENTS"

8.00 pm
refresh-refresh website..."no new ANNOUNCEMENTS"

8.00+
refresh-refresh website..."no new ANNOUNCEMENTS". sent sir arlo a message: sir gud evning! andrea conopio po i2 vice pres of 3jrn2.around wat tym ko po ichcheck ung eleap ko and which section nyo po uupload? i checkd 2x na po. =)

at ang kagimbal-gimbal na reply: "3 am announcement"

sunud-sunod ang mga nagtatanong kung may list na ng names. at sakasawiang palad, wala akong load, nakisuyo akong mag GM kay aevan na naka-unlimited. ayan. nataranta at kinabahan si nonoy na ka-chat ko, lalo na si ae. nagforward ng text si ae: guys, mille txtd arlo...3am pa raw magppost ng names. For ur questions, dont ask mille, dont ask me, taga-relay lng kmi ng message. For ur violent reactions look for arlo!

1130 pm
humiga, nakatulog sa pagod pagkatapos magscrub ng tiles ng CR.

1.00 am
got up to check for updates. refresh-refresh website..."no new ANNOUNCEMENTS"

2:30 am
refresh-refresh website..."no new ANNOUNCEMENTS"

2.45 am
refresh-refresh website..."no new ANNOUNCEMENTS"

3.00 am
refresh-refresh website..."no new ANNOUNCEMENTS"
refresh-refresh website..."no new ANNOUNCEMENTS"
refresh-refresh website..."no new ANNOUNCEMENTS"
refresh-refresh website..."no new ANNOUNCEMENTS"
refresh-refresh website..."no new ANNOUNCEMENTS"

4.00 am till present
refresh-refresh website..."no new ANNOUNCEMENTS"

ano ba yan? bakit pati pagtulog pinagkakait sa akin?!


it's 9:04 PM now

i speak as a citizen (charing!)


my lousy column for the manilan, hehe!


Everyone is never satisfied. Out on the streets are groups of people voicing out their desires regarding the change of leader and the administration. After a long time of thinking and assessment, I realized that whoever the people place on the throne, it never satisfies any of us. When we listen to the sentiments of each person, we see that they all have different points and opinions, but still everyone cannot be pleased.
No matter how hard our leaders do their best in serving us, if in ourselves we cannot start doing things right, we aim nothing at all. Just like a sick person, when everyone around him tries to take care of him, if he himself doesn’t do a thing at all, nothing good’s going to happen.
In our country, I guess what each person need is the initiative. Each person demands for a lot and yet within themselves they couldn’t afford to move even a single step ahead to help improve our situation. For whatever it may be worth, let me put into words my thoughts that we shouldn’t expect from others to fulfill our expectations. In our desire in aiming a progressive and disciplined nation, it entails trust and faith among one another. In Aristotle’s Political Philosophy of Parts and whole, he describes the relationship between the individual and the society. Yes, there could be one or more persons who take personal advantage of what they have, but not everyone does the same thing. If everyone continues the “pinapangunahan” notion towards everybody, expect that our nation will never take even a single step ahead. Thus, finding faults in each other and taking a broad view toward one’s faults will not help. It only intensifies the condition. Each of us plays a major part in this society and I believe that being able to do a good act would help the others see that in ourselves, we can start helping one another.
As part of the society, I am not judging anybody since in myself, I know I have lapses. But it is not an excuse to take advantage over others. I only say what I have carefully discerned in the course of time. My eyes are not blind on how things stand and with that I know my stand.
Chances are worth giving, but hand in hand people should be aware that each has responsibilities as well. Whoever said that things are easily done especially when millions of people expect from you? Yes, things are easier said than done, that is why many feel neglected and deceived by whom they expect from. Let us not place our fate in others’ hands. Idleness will result to nothing but rotten us, especially as an individual. Waiting for someone to have the initiative is not an excuse as well. Thinking of ourselves is also thinking of others.
Nothing is easy, but everything could turn out right when each one is aware of the responsibilities. When one makes a difference, others may follow. It takes a lot of faith and courage in taking a big step, no one will know unless one TRIES.


it's 1:32 AM now

enlightenment.

realizations

was reading the magazines this afternoon after i got home from the mass and realized a lot of things.

first, not everyone who shows you good things have good intentions. though it may appear as if that person would be your angel during your darkest and deepest hours, do not give into it, open your eyes, keep your senses awake. it's not always what it seems.

words are words, actions are actions, they appear enchanting (honestly) but you never know until the situation calls for it.

an article by faye ilogon in the september 2007 issue of the cosmopolitan shared experiences with the "snakes" in society and what they are capable of. here's one situation she shared:
Ria and Elsa, both 27, are writers for the lifestyle section in a major daily. Elsa often asks Ria for writing advice. "Write me naman a good intro," Elsa would often whine to Ria, who out of good nature, would always oblige. Soon enough, their editors were praising Ria for "writing incredible intros." With Ria standing next to her, Elsa smiled and said, "Thank you. I worked so hard on them." Ria was aghast. "Ahas talaga! Afterwards, she acted as if nothing happened," she reveals.

Elsa's sneaky move-as terrible as it may seem to Ria-pales in comparison to what other women are capable of when they want to do away their hated rivals.
second, hypocrites or backsliders have a faster progress in reaching their wants but they also have a quick downfall.

third, kyle's status this evening was really catchy. "everything's visible to your eyes only when nothing's left with you." you realize a worth when it's gone. you feel the pain when you loose something. the feeling of resentment awakens you when you cannot change things. sometimes, it's really a good to listen and think a lot, rather than shutting up and not giving others or yourself a chance to say something.





it's 12:59 AM now

October 14, 2007
back into you


current LSS:
amber davis' back into you.

picking up the pieces of a broken memory
that's one i can't let go of that keeps me on my knees
said i know its not my fault that we couldnt stay together
but we said no matter what we'd still be friends forever

how could you turn & just go
when im here standing so cold
now you wanna work it out
tell me what's that all about
how could you go & move on
like what you have for me is gone
now you wanna work it out

baby im tryin to find my way back into you
when i think about you love me love me baby its not easy
but im tryin to find my way back into you
when i think about you've moved on baby thats just so wrong

i never quit my love for you baby that's the truth
too hard for me to move on when i feel this way for you
see you know sometimes we need a space baby thats ok
but if you really love me why'd you leave that way

tell me how could you turn & just go
when im standing so cold
now you wanna work it out
tell me what's that all about
how could you go & move on
like what you have for me is gone
now you wanna work it out

baby im tryin to find my way back into you
when i think about you love me love me baby its not easy
but im tryin to find my way back into you
when i think about you've moved on baby thats just so wrong

baby im tryin to find my way back into you
when i think about you love me love me baby its not easy
but im tryin to find my way back into you
when i think about you've moved on baby thats just so wrong

heaven knows every second i am waiting for you
i find it so hard, find it so hard
i'd do anything to find a strength to be with you
i want it like you do, want it like you do
i just need sometime to free my piece of mind
but before you go i want you to know

baby im tryin to find my way back into you
when i think about you love me love me baby its not easy
but im tryin to find my way back into you
when i think about you've moved on baby thats just so wrong

trying to find my way back into you...


it's 4:43 PM now

October 13, 2007
relaxation at last.


I was waiting for my turn at the auto-teller machine when meow took this picture. somehow i managed to be composed and all despite the exhausting weeks before finals.

The first semester was like a month, everything went so fast that I could still remember our first day in class.

And now, here i am just eating and sleeping the whole day...making up for the days that turned into sleepless weeks.

i miss my bed. i miss dreamland. i miss sleeping.



...and oh yeah, back to blogging *wink*


it's 11:32 PM now