Last Summer

February 26, 2008

the looks

had a great day even though things are kinda complicated. mon and carlo's still having poops though both are sick. every now and then i check on them even during in between classes. uncle tommy's still in coma. somehow, good things still come. i know *wink* but seriously, one thing caught my attention this afternoon.

She gave me the look.

ever had that feeling when someone gave you that look, you don't know what to do but just give back the same look?

oh c'mon, i won't give anyone a look if nobody does it to me. another thing, what's with the look? tell me.

it's just simply, a tit for a tat, *wink* it goes like this, "i don't really fight back, but i treat you the way you treat me. let's get even. hey, i wouldn't be cold towards you, if you weren't. ill try to work it out and reach out to you, but hey if you're really tough well, let's get it on."

honestly, i don't want any argument or gap either. let's make things straight, if you have problems with me, tell me, just don't give that look 'cause you won't like it when i do it.

just a lil words from someone you have to know first...i'm not harsh, it's just me being blunt. nothing personal. when you're nice and sweet, i'm more than nice and ultimately sweet but if you're tough and you have problems with me, better be sure they're "reasons" for you to act that way 'cause damn..i tell you darling, think twice, think a lot of times before you act bitchy towards me.

there's more to what you see. *wink*

though i may not know what's in your head, what you think about me, what you know about me when you gave that stare, still i don't really think it's ethical unless you fancy me *LOLs* what am i saying? anyways, seriously better approach me. it's not like im gonna bite or eat you up.

it's 10:09 PM now

February 25, 2008

sara evans - i could not ask for more

wonderful song. the words are so right.
her song definitely describes the "almost-exact" feeling i have right now.

it's 1:21 AM now

another night in the ER

another night in the ER, this time...i had to rush Carlo to the hospital. mon stayed at home, still sick.

mia went with us and we spent more or less 3 hours in the ER. Carlo's body temperature was rising, and half of my me is worried about my other brother who was alone in the apartment. but somehow i know mon's getting better. good thing des was around tonight to check on mon every now and then. mia's mom, tita wena came just before carlo was about to be discharged.

i've got too much in my head, but still i'm feeling better. im overwhelmed with every thing that is happening right now, but the least that i know i would do is to give up.

there is no water supply since this afternoon, and that's really a bad thing because basically how can i cook our meal? i cannot just buy food outside from the fast food shops since both boys are sick. how can i wash the dishes? what will happen if one of them throws up or poops, is "our" water supply enough? according to the management, by 10 in the morning tomorrow, the water supply from Maynilad will be delivered. i just really hope so because i cannot afford to let another day end by trying to find a way to get ample water supply.

but somehow, one good thing that's happening right now: i'm not the one getting sick, not now, no...no. another would be...mon is getting better.

it's 12:44 AM now

February 24, 2008

mixed nuts

Christine "happy slip" Gambito's video of a typical discussion, very Flip!
it love it. and yes, the lip thing...that's just so ours, haha!

it's 5:09 PM now

this is ER right?

Since my brother had fever, vomiting the whole day and was having frequent bowel movements, i brought him to the hospital.

Soon as we arrived, my brother went straight to the comfort room, the usual bowel movement. Then when he got back, I approached this physician, who was writing something and it went on like this...

mil: Excuse me.
physician: Bakit?
mil: my brother is sick, every now and then my bowel movement sya, then he throws up rin tapos last night he had fever.
physician: sige, upo muna siya dun (pointing at the empty stretcher)
mil: ok.

mon sat down telling me he doesn't feel well again and we were talking. i told him i was pissed of on how that lady entertained us. then after like 10 minutes, a nurse approached us saying...

"Ma'am meron na po naka-assign dyan."

So meaning to say, "umalis dapat kami doon."

We looked stupid kasi my brother's a patient who didn't have a chair or a stretcher to sit on. How's that? I have to admit, there was a number of patients last night, but still no matter how many there were, there should have been proper attention given.

After minutes of waiting, a male nurse gave my brother a place. But guess what, it took almost 20-30 minutes before an attending physician could serve us...

What's bothering me is the fact that the physician who asked my brother to wait on "that" stretcher was NEGLECTFUL. My head's boiling, seriously because, she didn't even bother to check my brother after she said that wherein she walked back and forth in front of us. She shouldn't have asked me what was wrong if she couldn't take the responsibility of assisting her patient. She should have asked someone else in the first place to assist us. And another thing, i had that feeling that she was annoyed when i asked her. Want proof? ask my brother who was beside me all the time. He told me, "parang nainis pa siya nung nagtanong ka." She had that look on me every time she would pass by us. Hey, this is ER remember? There is an urgent attention needed by the patient brought inside the place. Please, for God's sake stick that into your head.

Well, fair enough though, I had that look as well, worse even. Thanks to my brother's real attending physician who never missed to check on him every now and then for staying 3 hours in the emergency room.

it's 10:04 AM now

February 23, 2008

vain, vain, vain

me and my girls at the TYK restroom getting ready for the 4th USTv awards held at the UST Medicine Auditorium, Wednesday, February 20.

before we having dinner, there was a need for re-touching (eww?!) lols.

iris had first worn a pair of slacks and matched with a formal top when she said that she also brought a dress with her. since everyone in the restroom was wearing dresses, she ended up wearing a pretty one too. the power of "pagdadamay" haha!

naging mahiyain ang lahat, may uurong na dapat, may gustong magpalit, may mga na-shock sa sari-sariling itsura. but we did enjoy the night, thanks for the free tickets!

since the class was invited to watch the awards night, and the fact that our wardrobes do not posses much of the "corporate" or "formal" outfits, almost everyone was in a rush to get those attire for the night. when you're short in cash and in time, divisoria and greenhills are the perfect places.

by the way, it almost like "dingdong dantes day" everyone was screaming like crazy.

it's 2:47 PM now

February 22, 2008

the 4th ustv awards night

ABS-CBN bagged 10 while GMA-7 took home 8 awardsd in the 4th USTv awards held Tuesday night, February 20 at the UST Medicine Auditorium.

The awards were drawn from the nominations of 33,000-strong student body. Studio 23 topped the USTv awards as the Most Youth-Responsible Television Station.

TV Patrol won the student's choice for Local News Program for the fourth consecutive year. Prime time anchors, Julius Babao and Karen Davilla were chosen as Students' Choice for Male and Female News and Public Affairs Hosts.

Boy and Kris, the daily talk show hosted by Boy Abunda and Kris Aquino was named Best Variety Talk Program; Pinoy Big Brother Season 2 was declared as Students' Choice of Reality Show; That's My Doc as Students' Choice of Sitcom. Charo Santos-Concio's Maalala Mo Kaya won Students' Choice for Drama Program. "Salamat Dok" was chosen Students' Choice for Public Service Program while Princess Hours was named Students' Choice for Foreign Soap Opera.

ABS-CBN's Sunday Programs, The Buzz and ASAP '07 were chosen Most Popular Entertainment News Program and Most Popular Variety Show.

Studio 23's Sineskuwela was named the Student's Choice for Educational Program and Y Speak was the Students' Choice for Students' Choice of Public Affairs Talk Show Program.

Marimar, GMA7's high-rating miniseries was declared Most Popular Miniseries along with its leading tandem, Dingdon Dantes and Marian Rivera as Most Popular Actor and Actress in a Drama/Miniseries.

Kapuso bagged Kapuso Mo, Jessica Soho as the Best Magazine Program; I-Witness as the Best Documentary Program and for Students' Choice for Public Service Program was Wish Ko Lang (tied up with Salamat Dok).

GMA's long-running Comedy Sitcom, Bubble Gang was chosen Most Popular Gag Show while Slam Dunk was the Students' Choice of Full Animated Program.

it's 10:47 PM now

February 19, 2008

babae nga naman

anong gagawin mo pag nahulog ang cellphone?
a. agad dadamputin
b. titili at tititigan muna bago damputin

e malamang lang sisigaw muna ako. kahit ba minsan ay cowgirl ako, i tell you, sinisita ako ng kapatid ko

carlo: pwede namang damputin agad, imbis na gamitin mo ung lakas mo sa pagtili, damputin mo na kasi. babae talaga!

sexist ang loko.

meow at camille sa quadri grounds pagkatpos nagchismisan.

mil: sis, tara?
meow: cge lets go.
tumayo si mil, tapos si meow. at nalaglag ang gamit na nakapatong sa hita.
meow: aayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!
mil: *tumili* rin
meow at mil nagtitigan, bago pinulot.

hala, anu ba yan? nagiging ganap na babae na nga ba ako? bakit ganun? ampangit. ang tinis pa naman ng pagkakatili ko, pesteng yan.

well at least, masasabi narin ng kapatid ko, "babae ka nga"...

it's 12:44 AM now

February 15, 2008

saturdays devoted to our new abode, ust library

library, not your typical place to hang-out, why is that so?

first, its silence kills you. friends can't talk for long, laugh their lungs out and run around the place because there's a consequence for doing so. but for those who would want to slip into dreamland, but does not have a car or a place within the vicinity, this is the right place to stay in between classes. *wink* you all know how the technique is, just a little bit of props - face down in the book's pages would be more than enough. but hey, better not let those drools come out! *lol* second, you really cannot eat. well some can, and im one of them. slipping those crackers, chips or sandwiches into your bag and grab a piece once and a while would be okay. but mind you, don't let the staff catch you.

more reasons:
i am allergic to the smell of the books, especially the antique newspapers at the 6th floor. i cannot study without putting my feet on top of another chair or i just simply can't do my indian position.
my movements are minimal. its hard for me to whisper.
i want sounds, i hate plugging earphones into my ears when i'm working on a paper or doing a research. i cannot d my "routine" every time i take a break from reading or writing. (i cannot DANCE! i cannot express myself.)
i easily fall asleep in a very quiet place, that's why i cannot concentrate on reading or studying. i get shhd by the staff when i'm with someone, i hate it.
things have changed...well, not all. > i go to the library almost everyday. > i fall asleep once in a while, my eyes easily get tired.
> i slip food into my bag, or if i really can't take it, i go out and buy more. haven't tried bringing noodles, or rice inside...i can still take it, somehow.
> i can tolerate the quiescence inside the library.
> i move less, i avoid running or making my shoe heels make a caustic noise. but there is one thing i cannot get over, i always make a mistake about the doors. i tend to push the locked side, therefore making a clamor.
> im getting used to the smell of the kopong-kopong books and newspapers, but i still sneeze every time i go out of the library.
> i borrow books almost every other day, because i love our THESIS Proposal!
> i just get tired walking back and forth, up and down the stairs if the elevator is full.

parang tambayan na ang library sa mga panahon ngayon, nakakagulat. ang mga hindi pumupunta ng library, nandoon, makukumpleto ang 3jrn2...and i bet lalo na next semester, seniors...here we come!

carlo scratching his head as he trims my RRLS for our "framework of the study"
carlo: itong hinay-light ko, isasama ito sa framework natin ha? ayan...
mille: opo boss.

niccolo attentively looking at chinky while she explains their conceptual framework,
while kyle, hmm.. is on idle mode, he just woke up though. hehe!

mille & karlo taking a break (that's chinky and niccolo behind us).

it's 9:10 PM now

February 14, 2008

it's happy ♥s' day!

i love those candy-colored balloons. i wanted all of them! my brother and i spent more than 30 minutes on our way to sm san lazaro for these balloons. valentines eve daw kasi. hindi rin! when you're in a jeep traveling along lacson street during the rush hour, you would prefer walking to sm, 'cause for sure...you'll get there before the jeep does. when we got there, this lady working in the gift wrapping area of national bookstore was not really doing her job in the right way, and i was really upset, but i was still nice and i didn't get to activate my pissed off mode. she burst one spiral balloon, and it took her like five times before she could get it "somehow" right.

meow's "i ♥ yamyam" story

mille's non-stop "pagsusuyo" kay nonoy (joke!)

it's 10:43 PM now

February 12, 2008

for a second the pldt bill rocked my world.

soon as i got home from my literature class this afternoon, i immediately changed my clothes attended to my rumbling tummy and had a snack - my fave philly cheese sandwich.

before taking a nap, i realized that i had to send my resume for internship at once. but when i was about to lay down, the phone rang.

lady in line: hello good afternoon!
mille: yes?
lady in line: ma'am due na po ang pldt bill niyo ng 14.
mille: (*jaw dropped* confused, didn't know what to say, till finally...) sorry? (haha, gotcha!)
lady: yes ma'am. your pldt bill for January is due on 14.
mille: (still couldn't get a hang of it...) just a second, i paid my pldt bill friday last week, and i haven't got a new bill. how's that?
lady: yes, yung last bill niyo po was *amount*
mille: yeah, i just paid that.
lady: is this...
mille: yes, andrea camille conopio. (taas kilay)
lady: yun nga po ma'am andrea, overdue na po.
mille: (more confused) are you sure? (pauses thinking...yes, i really was) wait, let me look..or rather ill just check my bills and ill attend to it if ever, thanks anyway.
lady: sige po, salamat.
mille: bye.
*hang up*

i was so confused, i ended up staring at my laptop for like 10 minutes, thinking. am i really a mess to have misplaced that damn bill? *recalling that certain day when i got home from school and the guard handed me a bill and i tear it open to check the amount* and i couldn't remember anything after that except when i asked my brother to pay the bill on Friday (last week) since i had to go to Fairview to bring some papers to our cousin. I checked my files, both neatly filed and messy piled up papers beside my computer table. the pldt i was trying to recall was paid, yes it was! still i wasn't convinced, i went down and asked the two guards if pldt brought new bills for the occupants. "wala po ma'am.." alright then, im getting annoyed. checked the files twice, my bags, the drawers, the folders. no unpaid bill. i was thinking hard that it would be embarrassing if i actually misplaced it and acted like i didnt get any at all. finally, i had it...i called pldt hot line and a customers sales rep entertained my call. i told him every thing and i asked him if i have unpaid bills? or balance? he got my number, my complete address, my complete name, and after waiting for two minutes...oh by the way, he even mentioned his name. unlike the lady who called earlier, DIDN'T.

CSR: Ma'am Andrea, you don't have any overdue bills.
mille: really? how come the lady a while ago told me that i have an overdue bill?
CSR: Oh, sorry ma'am. Hindi na po dapat tumawag pa, please disregard the call nalang. Every thing is clear, actually we owe you...*it was slowly fading in my ears*
mille: is that so, anyway thank you so much.
CSR: Pasensya na po, and thank you for calling PLDT hot line.
mille: alright, thanks!
*hang up*

maybe you're wondering why on earth, am i freaking out with just one "overdue" PLDT bill. This is the case...pldt once called about my registration for dsl, since i was in school my brother was the one who got the call telling me about my pldt dsl application is processed already. then, another call telling that i won a Nokia N*something series* and that i can only avail it till Monday (this happened two months ago). First of all, i have applied for this PLDT broadband, almost two years ago, and i wouldn't be stupid to apply another PLDT broadband connection, 'cause i have one! Lastly, I didn't join any contest or raffle draw with PLDT. And since, i called back after my brother told me about the calls which happened a month ago and the other two months ago...they told me that there was no such thing. No Nokia N*series* phone and application. Every time i make a return call and asked regarding the issue from previous phone calls. "wala daw" how's that for a joke? or does it appear that i'm lying? stupid calls. SPAM prolly.

i hate issues about payments, especially overdue bills, or anything that wasn't attended to earlier. i just want things in the right places. after all, it's not really easy being the eldest, meaning more weighted responsibilities over my two younger brothers. well, it may not be the case to everyone, but this is my case. no mom and dad as of now, that's why. in four months time, i can rest being an "ate"...

anyway, imma go and eat chocolates muna. laters!

it's 6:01 PM now