Last Summer

march is about to end.
classes are almost over.
grades are about to be released soon.
internship any time soon.
and summer's heat is here!

im beginning to experience my summer anxiety: skin problem. im back on high maintenance. i cannot stay in a hot place. i should avoid sweating. i should take a shower more than twice a day. wear comfortable outfit, best suggested "cotton" all the time. avoid scratching any part that's itchy because it'll leave a mark or bruise. "camille, wag mag-kamot! pepeklat!"

it's not bungang-araw, or galis (no-no!) or whatsoever. the last time i had my skin check up was years ago. mom brought me to a dermatologist, and as far as i can remember, that happened twice. diagnosis? well, since i grew up in a different country. it was way too difficult for me to adjust with the country's climate. since i only experience this difficulty every time i come here in the philippines, it only means one thing: i really am not used to this kind of weather. there's humid. though the hotness reaches 50C in Riyadh, im not very much affected because air condition runs more or less the whole day. the heat there is basically the sun's heat alone, you don't sweat because the level of humidity is so low that your pores won't open up to let those sweats out of your system.

every time i take a vacation here in the philippines, it has always been my problem. i get easily irritated every summer, except when i stay in malls or anywhere cold. that's high maintenance darling. there are times when i cannot wear something i want to because of insecurities. well what the heck, it's not contagious. im not really after that pearly white flawless skin. man, if i could turn my skin into bronze, i would love to! i love being morena. makes me feel "pure pinay". unfortunately, im not really that flawless. and i cannot say that i hate what's happening to me, but all i can do is help myself rather than getting so annoyed.

and for this, i hate summer. i cannot just take a bath anywhere. my body skin gets difficulties in adjusting. and up till now, my skin cannot adjust. i think i need a more serious management if i cannot get my hands still.

it's 10:46 PM now

it's been a while since i last dropped by here.

a lot of things happened.

weeks before march came, the two boys have been sick for almost a week. both were brought sa hospital, given medication and all. siyempre akong na ateng wala sakit, todo sa alaga tapos may class rin.

then just when the two boys were getting better, my uncle had a stroke. he was confined in a hospital in san pablo, laguna. things really happen for a reason. good thing the two boys were well i finally had the chance to travel to laguna and pay a visit to tito tommy (my dad's eldest brother). it was really a blessing in disguise when i decided top go on leave for a day and give all my attention to tito not realizing that it was his last day, my last chance to take care of him. since then, i traveled back and forth, manila to laguna, everyday for four days till his burial.

a day right after his burial, when exam week was already here, i was hospitalized. i was confined for 2 nights and 3 days. i had viral diarrhea. i probably ate something way back in laguna before i traveled back here. my cousin pong stayed with me from day one, then irah came too. ive always wished that i would be confined in a hospital, but after experiencing it, i would never want anything like that to happen again. i hate the needles, the dextrose and all. it hurts. they hurt patients. (im stubborn, i know).

i wasnt able to take 3 exams, therefore hassle ang pagdadaanan kong magpa-special finals. bad trip!

i still am not employed for my summer internship, im way behind my classmates, and it's not good. i cannot apply to any company right now because its holy week. meaning, ill have that opportunity by next week pa. next week naman, im going back to laguna, errands-errands. *hmmm* sigh good luck, back to the 'ol ngrarag days.

i enjoyed my days, kahit magulo at nakakawindang ang mga pangyayari, it brought me back to the people i barely spent my time. it's been years since we all had the chance to be with each other. years ago. may tito's death was somehow a new beginning for some of us and also a blessing in disguise.

speaking of gorgeous cousins? *taas kilay*
well...*wink*

it's 11:46 PM now