8.01pm
12 May 2008

when will you ever open your ears to the things i say. the truth that flows from my heart will never decieve you.

im not after self-reputation or any of that matter, but for the better and the truth. im not after what other people would say. they can talk about anything they wish to with or without knowing the real matter at all. we all have our own preferences and own minds, we choose what we think and stand for. we all have our own beliefs to which we are persistent. i wouldn't spend my time convincing other people to understand me and my choices in life. nobody can please everybody. my life won't end when i can't win other people's hearts. what they say cannot be THE definition of the true person in me. a lot of people define others through presupposes or gossips. i am not born into this world to please everyone and be stepped on.

we were going well at first, not paying attention to what other people would say or even think. it was just between you and me. it was something close to perfect. we had OUR world. what mattered was the truth we both shared and believed. but it came to a point when people have slowly affected us lives, pulling us apart from each other. i may have hurt you, yes. i have to admit, i am not perfect, i have my flaws and imperfections. whoever said that something wonderful never passed through mistakes? i do everything to make it up to you. but it seems upon hurting you, that made it easy for them to slowly take you away from me and lose the trust you have given me. thus, aggravating the situation.

i know i have hurt you. im sorry. i never meant to. but i hope that one day, you would open your eyes and realize once again the magnificent gift we both share. i stood beside you as they try to tear us apart. you had me from the start. how i wish that they won't succeed with whatever they try to do in tearing us apart. i need you to believe in me once again. what do i have to do so that you would believe in me once again? i come to you with my heart bleeding, asking for forgiveness and a chance to begin again. i cannot afford to lose the most important person in my life just because of people who aim nothing but ruin other's lives by talking nothing but shit and keeps pulling people down.